Well, it is another new year. Welcome 2017…may you be much better to me this year, compared to last year. I expect a lot of changes this year, the main one being my health: making lifestyle changes to drop the unnecessary weight, feel better about myself and look better. I know I have it in me.
2016 was a tough, but manageable year for me. There were a lot of ups & downs, heartaches, heartbreaks, changes and a major accomplishment. I actually graduated from Eagle Gate and obtained my Bachelor of Science in Graphic Design! I am beyond thankful to the 3 ladies who came to support me and see me graduate — Monica, Salisha & Bri. The week of my graduation, I was dealing with a very rough breakup and had no will to live, let alone the urge to attend my own graduation. I wasn’t eating anything and was about ready to give up on life. If it wasn’t for these amazing ladies in my life, and another great friend, then I don’t know where I would be today. Seriously. Anyways, back to my yearly review…
I moved in with Bri in late January of 2016, in order to find myself. Not only did I attempt to find myself, I found my way to creating an online dating profile on Plenty of Fish (POF). I met a few different guys, but still felt empty inside. I was hanging out with my ex, Vince, but felt like I was just floating by day to day with no end goal or urge to change. I loved living with Bri, except for when the bathroom was occupied (which was MOST of the time). My brother, Brian, flew in to visit me and his Utah friends around my birthday in June. I felt special and excited that Brian would be spending my 30th birthday with me, yay! We went to Wise Guy’s comedy club and saw Ardin Myren (she was played on MadTV). It was really fun. Just one week later, enter in Angello. He decided to message me through Facebook. He and I kinda dated back in 2009, but things didn’t work out. So we start talking and end up going out on July 4th. We hit it off all over again. It was like we picked up right where we’d left off. Add in my busy schedule with his busy work schedule, dealing with a recent divorce and 3 kiddos and it made for what would be later on defined as a rocky relationship. After about 3 months of being together, Angello started to come around less and blamed it on his work schedule and kids. So in the end, I was forced to initiate the breakup and end things. His excuse? He didn’t want anymore kids. In my opinion, I think he freaked out about being in a serious relationship and used the whole kids thing to his advantage. If someone truly loves you, they’d compromise at least having 1 child with you. Do I blame him? A little bit, but not by much. He is the one who came back into my life, who pursued me for a second time and led me on. Was he ready for a serious relationship? No way. Needless to say, I am dealing with personal rejection issues and trying to learn to love, accept and respect myself again. That breakup hurt me pretty badly. I will always wish Angello well, and I dearly hope he takes care of himself and finds true happiness. I will always love him.
Skip ahead to Christmas and I am hanging out with one of my exes again…and he is literally jumping over backwards to prove he wants to be with me again. He treats me nice, is respectful, honest, open and is the listening ear I need when I’m feeling down. He even lets me spend Thanksgiving, Christmas AND New Year’s with him. I don’t know what will become of it, but we will see. Oh, I also got to go home for Jacob’s mission farewell to see him before he left for Peru in October, it was a nice much needed visit. I also became a God Mother to baby Zayvien (Salisha’s baby boy) in early July! There’s more to say, but it’s personal so I shall write it in my journal.
Thank you for reading my 2016 year end review. Here’s a few of my favorite things from this past year, along with my new year’s resolutions and goals:
1. Google Play Music — I buy my favorite songs/albums and can listen to them ANYWHERE or ANYTIME, as they are downloaded on my phone.
2. Starbucks Cool Lime Refresher
4. My Betsy Johnson camera necklace
5. Driving — it relaxes me and clears my mind
New Year’s Resolutions:
1. Travel more
2. Lose weight
3. Accept myself
4. Save money
5. Quit EFS by June — I am SO done with this company. I feel underappreciated and it is just time for a new job.
Happy New year to all of you!!!